WRITER'S BLOCK

I am completely aware of my lack of posting recently( Erin is covering this thing!) but.... sadly.... I have writer's block! The worst kind... I've tried time and time again to post something new. I open everything, search for ideas, start a sentence, then stop. I can't finish, no matter how hard I try. I've thought of so many ideas it's almost unfathomable: Pictures of my walls(which just so happen to be covered with chalk), great books to read, british slang, how to make a movie, the most interesting stories, stereotypes, cool old people(you'd be surprised), and many. many more. Nothing. It isn't just with this either. I have recently finished To Kill a Mockingbird for school and was asked to write a final essay over equality and other themes. I sat down for hours. I tried so hard to write, but nothing of use came out. Eventually, I gave up forming plausible paragraphs and just described key points in the book that don't even remotely fit together. Also, I've started writing a short story/ long story/ whatever it turns out to be. I have two pages at most and can't seem to put my thoughts in working order to construct anymore of it. I see all of these different pathways in my head but can't seem to choose one. It's absolutely atrocious. On top of that, I am attempting (to no avail) to construct a film of my thoughts and views on life. I have written all over my walls about the things I want to include and how to say them, but can't seem to put it all together. Maybe I am trying to do too many things at once...(While writing this I am doing proofs for math, reading a vast amount of books and poems (Don't follow me I'm lost, Wuthering Heights, Harold's End, Sense and Sensibility,Say it in French, Le petit dictionnaire en Francais, Serial Killers(weird stuff), Kitchen, and Pablo Neruda....... I read a lot.. huh. Never noticed that before...and I have A LOT of open books on my bed... maybe I should just pick one... maybe two... AHHH, I'm so indecisive! and I kind of have a new little paragraph in these parenthesis... parentheses, parenthesis's.... oh whatever.) during pauses, watching a movie, trying to teach myself how to play the guitar, drawing, studying for my Economics test(that I was supposed to take a week ago), and preparing for Spanish(facil), AP Psych(intriguing), and Botany(Boring) tomorrow.) Nahh, that can't be it. I'll just keep doing the same thing over and over again and expect different results! (definition of insanity) Oy.


P.S. this post/ ranting took all of about five minutes.... and I'm a slow typer.... why is it that I can only finish stupid, pointless, meaningless things that most likely no one will read?!?!?!?!?!?!?!